Progress not perfection

I love that the wonderful program of al anon is about progress, not perfection.

Today I went back to my old controlling ways... in fact, it began last night. I don't understand how money seems to just fall right through my husbands fingers, he has never been good at managing it so I don't know why I think he should now, because he is clean. See, we're in a situation where i am the breadwinner and he studies full time. He gets about a small about of money to spend each fortnight, and always runs out in the first week or so. It isn't alot but it is purely his to spend, not needing to worry about groceries, bills or anything. So I start with the 'what did you spend it on?' blah blah and then telling him how he should be managing it...

Then today, I'm onto him about his assignments... He's had 2 weeks holidays and he starts school again tomorrow and only just started his assignment about 4 hours ago. I was fuming, watching him 'study' with the tv on!

Anyway, its crazy how I expect my husband to be completely capable and normal within 8 months of being clean. I often forget he is in early recovery and is doing the best he can, and that need to stop focusing on what he is or isn't doing and to put that focus back onto myself. I love that in al anon you can restart your day at anytime! I was aware of my behaviours and decide to stop it in it's tracks and start my day over.

Today I am grateful that my hubby and I are both in 12 step programs and we have a chance to better ourselves.